A mood of sorts

Ugh...just not in the greatest of moods tonight. Girls, I'm sure you've all had those days where you feel like poo and you feel like you look like poo and maybe you do, but you sure feel that way. Guys, not sure if you ever do...I wouldn't really know. Well, tonight kinda went that way, you see...wow...this is gonna sound so pathetic...oh well...my blog....deal with it.....anyways, back to the topic.....so I guess I just got a little discouraged by my current standings at 22. Single, about to leave college forever (wow...I just had to stop after the word forever cause it hit me so hard) and no job yet. Kinda lame. As I was hanging out with some friends, I realized that I was the minority. I've been pretty content with being single, I think I've established that in previous blogs, but sometimes Satan just really gets to me and makes me feel less-than and I get discouraged. As I looked around at my friends I think I was one of very few that was not in a relationship or did not have someone currently pursuing or interested or potential bf/gf material......and I was by far the oldest there. Just wait,...it's gets worse.....so as I looked around I did another dumb thing and just kinda compared myself to those around me and found myself coming up quite short. These girls are amazing! Beautiful and great personalities and best yet, incredible Christians. Sometimes I feel like my personality intimidates others. I know I'm a dominant personality. I know that I'm a type-A. I know that, but does that make me a bad person? I was talking with a few other people recently and we were discussing how we sometimes feel that those quiet, innocent, keep to myself girls seem to be the ones that are sought after. Well, we know that's not me. I'm not exactly quiet. Ya, I know there are times when I speak before I think and have to go back and apologize; it's a daily learning process, but is it really a turn-off for a girl to be a little independent?? Just a question.

This really went in a million different directions and I'm sorry if I lost anyone. Just kinda putting some things out on the table. So ya, that's me right now. Tomorrow's another day and I hear it's gonna be a gorgeous one :)