Complete Trust

One minute everything's looking good. I'm feeling financially stable for the moment and all my chicks are in a row, but that's quickly lost. I'm only 8 weeks from graduation but before I get to that, I have to take some certification tests to get my license for teaching. Thing is, they cost money....a good chunk. Money of which I really don't have. On top of that, I owe a good bit of money for taxes cause my employer didn't take it out. Where is this money gonna come from?? And then that voice in the back of my head reminds me of all the times that I've felt this same way and God provided. It is so difficult for me to completely trust Him sometimes. When I look at the balance in my checking account and the amount I need, I have a hard time completely believing that it will be provided. But it will....it always is. Year after year God shows me again and again that if I just trust Him, He will be faithful to provide for my needs. Why is that such a difficult lesson to learn? Even as I write this, I'm still concerned about it.

God, you know my wants, my needs, the desires of my heart. I know you have a plan for me and I pray that You would continue to guide me and show me where you want me. Lord, I want so badly to trust you with my whole heart, not most, not half, WHOLE. Lord, remind me of who you are and what you have already done for me, that I might remember your faithfulness. I thank you and praise you for what you've already done for me...I am so blessed.