The Passion

I went and saw The Passion today with my mom. What an incredible and intense movie. I cannot begin to describe it; you just have to see it for yourself. It was not a movie I was excited to see because I know the story of Jesus' crucifixion and I knew the movie would be very lifelike and gruesome. Boy, was it ever. I sobbed so much in the movie. I can't believe He actually went through all that and made it so long after being flogged. I've heard the story so many times and had become numb to it's effect. I needed to see this movie to be reminded of just how much pain Christ went through for me. I can't imagine being or even watching those soldiers beat him so badly and laughing as they ripped away flesh. There were times in the movie I couldn't watch because it was so gruesome and difficult to watch. I kept thinking, "my sin did this." How many times have I thought, "it's just so difficult to give up or quite doing."?!? That movie sure did put it in perspective. It's not so difficult now. I understand more what it did and what it still does every time I do it. Can He still feel the pain every time I sin? I just picture that face so brutally beaten, blood dripping from the crown of thorns, eyes bloodshot and barely open looking at me and to think that His pain and death bought my ticket to heaven. Put it in another perspective: Imagine your dad doing that for you; flogged 40 times, punched, spat at, crown of thorns dug into his head and crucified because of your wrong doings. I don't think I'd ever forgive myself and yet Christ does. This Easter will be different for me. Christ's death and resurrection have taken on a whole new light and I hope and pray I never forget nor lose that.